Sunday, 7 November 2021

Revisiting My Goals for 2021

This morning I received an email from one of my favourite running companies reminding me that there are eight weeks left in 2021 and 48 shopping days until Christmas. Where did this year go?!

In early January, I wrote a post setting out my goals for the year and with two months left to achieve them, let's check how I am doing.

Goals I Have Met

etched metal plaque showing a hand holding a quill pen
"Hand with a quill pen" by Monceau is licensed under CC BY-NC-ND 2.0

In my goals for research, reading, and writing I have made some fairly good progress! 
  • I have submitted two long-overdue book reviews, now published in Speculum and History: Reviews of New Books. (There is also a review I remember submitting to Early Medieval Europe but which doesn't seem to have ever been published. I should check on that...) I then proceeded to add two new book reviews to my plate; one of which is a comparison of two translations, one in German and one in English. So two steps forward, two steps back.
  • I submitted a final draft of my book to my editor in late August so my goal of editing my book is in hand.
  • I haven't counted lately but am confident I've read more than 52 books this year.
  • I successfully pitched a 'How I Do History' feature to Contingent magazine, sent them a draft, and am presently waiting for the editor's feedback.

Running has been relatively successful too.  

  • I managed completed NYCRuns Subway Challenge II's Train Operator run: 691 miles in 26 weeks, which I did between September 2020 and March 2021.
  • I have made some good use of Youtube as a resource to help me warm up for runs, cool down after them, and do some foam rolling. I haven't been as good about using it for strength training and have done a grand total of two abs workouts, so still some progress to be made here.

Lastly, in the kitchen things have been going well.

  • While I was in Oxford, I expanded repertoire of quick and healthy meals to include stir fries with tofu (not in any way an 'exotic' ingredient but still one that is new to me).
  • On average I have tried one new recipe a month. August through October were very busy months, so I did less experimental cooking--when you don't have a lot of time, it's easier to stick to what you know.

Goals Underway

black and white photo of three books in a stack

"Stack of Books - 023" by Daniel Weber is licensed under CC BY-NC 2.0

 
In academic and research terms, the goal that was personally most meaningful to me was one I haven't fully achieved yet. I wrote in January that I wanted to   
Celebrate other people's good news. I sometimes feel that academic has a toxic culture of always finding fault, rather than celebrating achievements. Some of my most joyful moments as a historian last year came from celebrating others' achievements or having them celebrate mine. I want to be the kind of person who enjoys a colleague's article or book, hears about their grant or job success, and sends them a note of congratulations.
I can definitely point to some instances where I have done this but many more where I could have done and didn't. Still, with eight weeks left in the year there are definitely more opportunities to celebrate colleagues and friends.

Running-wise,  I still would like to try to use the local track for speed workouts at least twice. (I chickened out of running on the Roger Banister Track when I was in Oxford, though I went past it several times.) And Lincoln has a Santa Fun Run on Sunday 12 December; I may be running the virtual Honolulu Marathon on that date, but I could always run it in my Santa top and hat.

I set myself some ambitious goals for my writing and am hopefully about meeting these.
  • Although I haven't quite been able to post on this blog once a week, I will have produced at least 52 posts during 2021, which feels like an accomplishment.
  • I still have time to pitch at least one story to JSTOR Daily.
  • I had forgotten that I'd set myself the goal to write an essay about long-distance relationships in the 1918 Influenza pandemic; it is technically still possible I could do so, but increasingly unlikely.
  • While I probably won't submit a new draft of at least one academic article to a journal by December 2021, I have an article to redraft and a chapter to finish, both of which I want to get off by the end of this month, so I'm putting this one firmly in the 'doable' column!

In terms of my reading, I can still meet my goals to:

  • Read at least three books in each of the following categories: history, short stories, and poetry. I'm pretty sure the short story and poetry categories are in the bag; the history category is still in progress. My own rules for this category is that the book has to be written for a general audience, not a scholarly one, so I can't count any academic books (or books I've reviewed!) towards this category.
  • Share more books! I've just lent a friend Murder Must Advertise, and I'm hoping to write more about Dorothy Dunnett and Lois McMaster Bujold this month, so this one should be checked off my the end of the month.
My ambitious goals for my knitting, on the other hand, are not currently achievable. I wanted to make:
  • six pairs of socks
  •  a hat
  • mittens
  • a stuffed animal from the Dovestone Smallholding book
  • and finish a large cabled blanket that has been in progress since 2015

Some combination of these is still achievable but at this point I'm not sure which it will be. The hat and mittens might happen, or just one of them. The blanket awaits a major blocking and sewing job before I can begin to tackle the border.

And finally, my charitable and volunteering goals are still achievable.

  • I give a monthly donation to the Trussell Trust, a UK organisation that supports foodbanks, though I may need to top this up at the end of the year to equal my takeaway spending. 
  • I am still trying to get registered to volunteer with Reenage Call Companions, though I have fallen somewhat behind on this.
  •  AgeUK's Vitals for Veterans Programme seems to have stopped as the pandemic has changed, but there are other things I could volunteer to do.

Not Happening

The Start and Finish Line of the 'Inishowen 100' Scenic Drive

"The Start and Finish Line of the 'Inishowen 100' Scenic Drive" by Andrew_D_Hurley is licensed under CC BY-SA 2.0

 
There are a number of things won't achieve this year. Probably the biggest was my goal to finish the 2021 Manchester Marathon, in under four hours, uninjured and if possible smiling--I ran the race in 4:20 and was NOT smiling as I finished, though I did so afterwards. I did managed the uninjured part of things, so that's good.

I will absolutely not be able to knit six pairs of socks by the end of the year, but might be able to finish at least another pair or two before Christmas.

In terms of trying to limit my takeaway consumption, there have definitely not been two months where I never ordered food delivery or picked up a takeaway; though there have been some months where I only ordered one, the overall average is probably over that. During the earlier part of the pandemic I got out of the habit of doing top-up shopping at my neighbourhood grocery store, but started doing this again while I was in Oxford and then while I got through the start of term madness here. Smaller, more grocery trips are a good strategy for avoiding the temptations of food I didn't cook.

Looking back through this years post, I see I have only produced five posts tagged 'late antiquity'; somehow I thought there were more! Possibly, because I usually take longer to write those posts, they loom a bit larger in my mind. While I could, technically, still write seven more posts on late antiquity to produce twelve for the year, my other writing goals dump this one pretty firmly into the 'not happening' box.

What are your goals for the rest of the year?

Whatever they are, I hope they bring you joy and fulfillment, and that you go easy on yourself for anything you are not able to do.

Saturday, 6 November 2021

Who I'm Rooting for at the New York City Marathon

Tomorrow is the New York City Marathon! I'm not a huge sports fan but started to get more into following the sport of running after following the US Olympic marathon trials. The women's field was the largest in American history, and there were so many amazing stories of talented women, from all walks of life, who ran it.

To qualify, all of these women ran a sub-2:45 marathon. To explain just how impressive this is: my marathon PR is 4:18 and the average woman in the UK finishes in 5:00:39. Most of us couldn't run a single mile at 2:45-pace, let alone 26 of them, but the qualifiers' stories of commitment and hard work really struck a chord with me. Then during the pandemic, I started listening to a lot of running podcasts to fill the road-racing gap in my life. And this led me to be more interested in long-distance running as a professional sport. 

New York is, of course, one of the big races for the pros, and I'm cheering on the following folks in particular.

1. Noah Droddy

Americans love an underdog story and Droddy--who finished last in the 2016 US Olympic Trials for the 10,000m and is now the ninth-fastest American male marathoner of all time--has one. Like a lot of current pros, he has a fairly active social media presence, which he seems to use to draw attention to the reality of how hard it can be to make a living as a runner. His posts can often be very funny and he has great hair, so it would be fun to see him have a fantastic race.

2.  Ben True

New York is going to be his first marathon, so naturally that's a reason to cheer for him. True, who holds multiple American championships in various distances, did not have a sponsor for much of 2020-2021, and to add insult to injury, finished fourth at the US Olympic trials in the 10,000m. 

Most runners train as part of a group, but True has spent most his career training alone. As someone who trains for marathons on my own, I could admire him for this alone.
 
I don't follow him on social media so I don't have a sense of him as a person, but I'm hoping he has a Chris Thompson moment tomorrow.

3. Nathan Martin

Not someone I know a lot about, but he is fastest US-born Black male runner and works as a substitute teacher and high school sports coach.
 
Even more than parent runners, I am inspired by the stories of teachers who run. I hope Mr Martin has a great day in New York.

4. Viola Cheptoo

Another first time marathoner!
 
I learned about Viola Cheptoo from media coverage of the murder of Kenyan runner Agnes Tirop. Tirop was allegedly murdered by her husband and her death has been the catalyst for a lot of Kenyan runners to speak up about domestic violence and what needs to be done to protect and support women athletes. 

Cheptoo's advocacy makes me admire her and want to see what she does next.

5. Sally Kipyego

I first became a fan of Sally Kipyego after listening to an interview with her on the podcast Keeping Track. It's a wonderful conversation, and she comes across as a grounded, thoughtful, and wise person. Though she has won Olympic and World Championship medals, and made this year's US Olympic marathon team, she didn't have a great race in Sapporo, and it would be wonderful to see her have a fantastic day tomorrow.

6. Stephanie Bruce

Stephanie Bruce may never make an Olympic team (though like Ben True she has often been a serious competitor for one), but her gritty pursuit of big goals makes her an inspiring person to follow. She is pretty active on social media and regularly does interviews on running podcasts; from the information she's shared about her life it's clear that this has been a rough year. I'm hoping she gets through the race healthy and hears lots of people cheering for her.

7. Erin Azar

I'm not on Tiktok and I will never be on TikTok, but Erin Azar's running videos are a joy to behold. Unlike other running content creators, when Azar calls herself not fast, it actually means not fast. (I suppose this a moveable feast, but to me, if you can run a 3:30 marathon or 10k in under 7:30/min per mile, you have forever abdicated the right to call yourself slow.) Azar's videos represent and inspire ordinary runners and she's very funny about the ways in which running can sometimes suck. Hoping she has a blast tomorrow.

Echoes

The Guy Fawkes' Day fireworks have stopped so here is a poem about quiet solitude.

Deer Enclosure

Empty mountain, no man is seen.
Only heard are echoes of men’s talk.
Reflected light enters the deep wood
And shines again on blue-green moss. 

Wang Wei (699-759), translated by Pauline Yu, quoted by Ena Alvarado.

Yorkshire Sculpture Park

The Deer Enclosure. "Yorkshire Sculpture Park" by Jordanhill School D&T Dept is licensed under CC BY 2.0

Before two weeks ago, I hadn't know that deer enclosures are real. This one is at Yorkshire Sculpture Park, where the deer of erstwhile estate could take shelter in bad weather. This poem makes me see this structure full of deer, far from people, and lit by the reflected brightness of sunshine on snow.
 

Further Reading

Ena Alvarado (2021). 'Wang Wei: Poet of Buddist Emptiness'. JSTOR Daily. Available from: https://daily.jstor.org/wang-wei-poet-of-buddhist-emptiness/ [accessed October 2021]

Eliot Weinburger, Nineteen Ways of Looking at Wang Wei. (New York, 2016)

Friday, 5 November 2021

A Happy Ending

Midway through a mid-morning workshop for a grant application on which I am currently working (more on that anon), I glanced at my email and saw an update from the courier service: my package had been delivered. They even included a photo!

A promising box at my door...

I am now the proud owner of six out of eight volumes of the House of Niccolo series. They are a mongrel secondhand lot but all clean, readable, and mine, which is a very fine thing.

I discovered today that I somehow failed to order the remaining two volumes but that has been remedied--and fortunately they are volumes six and seven of the series. I love Dunnett but these books are not ones to rush through--I probably won't have made it through book three before they arrive.

Is there any happiness to equal that of new books?

Thursday, 4 November 2021

Book Frustration: Flypaper Thoughts Edition

One of my mother's favourite bloggers, Barbara Emodi, produces posts that she calls 'flypaper thoughts', a bulleted list of semi-connected musings and stories. I love them--here is my version.

  • Having borrowed Dorothy Dunnett's Niccolo Rising from the public library and devoured it in a weekend, I put the second book in the series on hold.
  • It has been 'in transit' between between the Long Sutton Library and Lincoln Central for nearly eight weeks.
  • I am second in the reservation queue.
  • I was beginning to wonder if it fell off the back of a truck and into the Wash.
  • Walking home recently, I saw a Lincolnshire Libraries truck carrying books to the library.
  • There did not appear to be a way for books to escape it.
  • The library has copies of the House of Niccolo series on Kindle.
  • Because they are Dorothy Dunnett books, they are intricately plotted.
  • Which means that if I read them on a Kindle, I will not follow half of the plot.
  • I read two of her other books, The Ringed Castle and Checkmate, on Kindle. 
  • This is how I know.
  • To overcome high levels of book-frustration, I asked my local bookshop to order the whole series.
  • The bookshop warned me that due to low stocks and supply chain problems, they could not tell me when the books would arrive.
  • I ordered used copies.
  • A courier from Hermes attempted to deliver the books today.
  • I was not in.
  • They will try again tomorrow.
  • I am not in tomorrow. 
  • Hermes does not allow me to change the delivery address.
  • They also do not allow me to choose a delivery day on which I will be home.
  • They do allow me to redirect the parcel to a neighbour.
  •  My closest neighbour does not have a doorbell.
  • To be continued...

Wednesday, 3 November 2021

Diptych for the Class of 2021

I read these two poems over the summer and they seemed to make a great pair of poems for graduates in the Year of Our Lord 2021. 
 
Not entirely comforting but what is these days.

A Dead Statesman

I could not dig: I dared not to rob:
Therefore I lied to please the mob.
Now all my lies are proved untrue
And I must face the men I slew.
What tale shall serve me here among
Mine angry and defrauded young?
 
~ Ruyard Kipling. Reprinted in the Zoo of the New, ed. Nick Laird and Don Paterson (London, 2017), p. 81

spinnweben"spinnweben" by loop_oh is licensed under CC BY-NC-SA 2.0

Graduation

He told us, with the years, you will come
to love the world.

And we sat there with our souls in our laps,
and comforted them.
 
~ Dorothea Tanning. Reprinted in the Zoo of the New, ed. Nick Laird and Don Paterson (London, 2017), p. 125

Monday, 1 November 2021

Weary History

It's national novel writing month! I am not, at present, writing a novel, but I am going to try to post here every day this month. My goals are to finish out my account of my time in Oxford, check in on how I'm doing on my 2021 goals, rave excitedly about the novels of Dorothy Dunnett, and write posts about the characterisation of historians in the works of Lois McMaster Bujold.
 
To kick it all off, a contribution to my commonplace book of poems about late antiquity and the early Middle Ages. Beowulf, the famous Old English epic poem about fate and violence, the latter embodied by its eponymous hero, is one of those things that most people know about the Middle Ages. There was a hero named Beowulf. He killed monsters and died fighting one.
 
What I like about this translation of the poem is it captures the tone of Old English: 'blunt-tongued' is the sensation of hearing or speaking that language. (And if you haven't hear Old English aloud, go here.) Even the translators' use of similar sounds 'repeated and repeated', 'weaves and unweaves its weary history', makes me think of my own dim memories that alliteration is a key component of Anglo-Saxon poetic metre.

Poem Written in a Copy of Beowulf

 
At various times, I have asked myself what reasons
moved me to study, while my night came down,
without particular hope of satisfaction,
the language of the blunt-tongued Anglo-Saxons.
Used up by the years, my memory
loses its grip on words that I have vainly
repeated and repeated. My life in the same way
weaves and unweaves its weary history. 
Then I tell myself: It must be that the soul
has some secret, sufficient way of knowing
that it is immortal, that its vast, encompassing
circle can take in all, can accomplish all. 
beyond my anxiety, beyond this writing,
the universe waits, inexhaustible, inviting.

 ~ Jorge Luis Borges, translated by Alastair Reid. Reprinted in the Zoo of the New, ed. Nick Laird and Don Paterson (London, 2017), 279.

The poem even pivots halfway through to express hope for immortality, calling to mind the way that Beowulf--and perhaps his poet?--hoped that heroic deeds would bring everlasting fame, 'beyond this writing'. 

Further Reading

Vladimir Brljak, 'Borges against the Vikings: Early Writings on Old Germanic Literature and History, 1932—46', Old English Newsletter 47:1 (2021), available online here
 
And also the rest of the issue, which is focused on Borges' engagement with Old English and Old Norse literature.